It’s been an unusual week in real life…you know, real life: offline and outside the craft room. I’ve had a bit of an internal struggle with a few things related to my crafting and decided it was best to let those troubles bring me to a standstill for a few days so I could work them out.
Caution: Rambling, slightly grumpy, honest post ahead but I’d bet you can identify with parts of it too
The Craft Room Clean Up & An Honest Project List
Some of this funk comes from some reflection I was tricked into doing earlier this week. One of my friends came over for a craft day but when she sat on the floor in the craft room (which was a disaster cause I still haven’t really finished unpacking from February) she started picking things up and organizing. I almost had an anxiety attack cause the idea of someone in my stuff irks me, but instead of stopping her I stopped myself. I trust her and have no secrets hidden in there, if she wanted to keep me company, poke through and organize my stuff while craft chatting then why in the world would that have been a problem? Spoiler alert: it wasn’t a problem!
As we talked about some of the items and fabric bundles she realized the thing I know: I have too many plans or WIP things going. So she did the thing I’ve been afraid to do…she started to make THE list. Now this isn’t the finish-along list, this is the all the things I would work on if I had all the time in the world. The stuff in the stash earmarked for a project that may not even be started.
I was very honest with what projects existed and by the time she left I couldn’t believe the list. Actually, that’s not true; I could. It was a big relief to see that the list was finite, sometimes it feels endless but with bullet points it seems actionable.
That brought me to question a few things about what I have going on now. Most specifically: where is my craft/blogging/making as a business going? Is it even still headed in a business direction? I have no idea. Part of the problem is I don’t have a goal, I’ve left it rather amorphous for fear of committing to the wrong goal but I think it’s time to set a goal and in a month if I want to change it I can.
Breakdown in Support System
Another thing that’s really bugged me this week is my support. When I asked directly to my non-sewing friend network I got a fraction of the encouragement and support I had hoped for, including from my closest of friends. Yet when I change my profile photo I get 50+ likes in hours and when someone complains about some nonsense 15 of their friends will comment. I know part of it is timing and Facebook’s algorithm but it was really discouraging and kept me up the other night wondering if what I am doing is even worth the time and energy I’m putting into it. Fortunately, the friend who helped with the craft room clean up sent me this, which warmed my soul at just the right time. I needed to remember likes are not a measurement of validation.
Time is Finite
I’ve also been stressed over how much I have on my plate. I plotted my week in a spreadsheet and marked what time is scheduled for an average week: sleep, work, and eating. Turns out I have 50 hours a week free time. Sounds like a lot but that’s all the time I have for family, friends, boyfriend, running errands, grocery shopping, doing laundry, keeping the house clean, going on adventures, playing outside, blogging, working on other web projects (there are more of them than just Quiltalong.net) and crafting.
Now that spring is peaking around the corner to say “hi” my weekends which means the wish to be outside the craft room and house are on the rise.
I’ll let it sit over the weekend then I will shake it off and get on with things. I don’t want to schedule how much of those 50 hours should be dedicated to my crafting or blogging but getting through this past week has emphasized that no matter what I’m doing I need to work smarter, not harder. It’s something I knew before but it’s really resonating now.
Do you identify with these challenges or similar issues? Feel free to rant in the comments because now I realize it feels really good having written all this down!